-the one after my 20th-
7:06 p.m. & 2008-06-27
So its been awhile.
and alot has happened
and i just dont know if i can really fully talk bout it all now...
I had an abortion a week and a half ago
the day before my 20th birthday.
hows that for a birthday present.
i ddnt celebrate my bday at all. and thats upsetting.
its all kinda messed up
no thats a lie. it WAS all messed up. its getting better...but even so, ive gone thru a hell of alot lately.
***edit**** just looked at my previous entry. "ok well not much else to report. im not pregnant. (which i must say it fucked up because i should be by now. how are all my friends so bloody FERTILE! ...not that im trying or anything. ...i do want a baby...but theres too much that needs to be done before that happens...) and my chrons disese is going alright. getting sick all the time, coz my immune system is crap but yea im not dying. (thats why im not preg i think...coz my body wudnt b able to handle it. ive only had my period once since we moved...thats how i know when im sick)"
that was at the end of the last one....i got preg like 2 weeks after that.
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